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Yep this is one of those kinda posts. The one where I feel awkward even writing as I brush away the digital dust left after years of neglect. I’ve done this too many times over the years, more time than I’d like to remember or can even recall.
Inspiration
Something inspired me to get back to the essence and it wasn’t an epiphany nor some existential event, it was that I was troubleshooting not being able to access this site that made me go digging. I revisited all the old spaces I used to write on and found a pattern of behavior (here we go)…
I tend to just jump from wave to wave which is reflective of beats I’ve made over the years. Never finishing, just on to the next ting. I’d say I made a decision to actually be the change rather than just wanting change a week ago. Yep. I had something dancing around my head whilst doing the dishes which was
Everyone wants to change but no one wants to change.
That day I’m not sure why or how but I thought about a lot of things. I thought about my lifestyle, my health, my finances, my creative works, my hopes, dreams and ambitions. I was locked in. I was up til late just trying to make the changes. Rather build the bridge from where I’m at now to the change.
Schedule Schedule Schedule
It ain’t easy but I’ve started a programming process where I schedule releases far in advance so I can enjoy creating and it doesn’t feel like a chore. I’m also trying to give myself room to create and finish not only content but actually works like I did with 0800YOFAM, 1012BC and Autobiography of A Nobody.
My living situation is quite a challenge at the moment so I tend not to record as much vocals. As much as I don’t want to go to Pirate in order to be free to express myself, I’d rather not spend the money but hey, needs must.
I want to write more or get better at reviving bars I’ve written years ago. The conflict is that a lot of stuff either makes me cringe or isn’t relevant anymore. The thing with writing is that I just need to decide what my style is and head in that direction. I’ll likely only discover that through recording much more than I am.
The Essence
Today was decent though. I’ve capped off several nights programming my back catalogue into Soundcloud and they’ve been schedule for release every few months on the platform rather than all at once. Doing that reminded just how many stories I’ve told and how many more I have to tell. The future is bright and I’m in a great place creatively, things are looking exciting and I’ve in a space where I’ve got the energy to create consistently again so watch this space…
