Monday 5th February 2024, 1239 GMT

Never thought I’d be one for a mirror reflection pep talk post shower but here I am.

I was up in that mirror eye to eye telling myself that I’m going to win and reminding myself that I’m a winner repeatedly.

Disappointment isn’t easy and the feeling of being left behind that comes with it leaves a nasty taste.
It lingers.

I’ve caught so many Ls just trying to progress here which have blessed me with a lot of lessons to proceed forward but that isn’t to say that it’s hard to sit with.

I’ve spoke to Chels many a time regarding a recurring theme of observing the wins of others and reflecting on my own situation but as much as I try to rationalise it, I have this lingering feeling of impatience.
I won’t say it’s envy, it’s impatience that’s driving me insane.

The more drawn out processes become is the more it festers in my head. It’s all consuming and tends to be all I can think about. I feel like I’m deteriorating as a result of it.

I live through the scenarios, all the alternate realities and then it settles to the one of what if…
I won the lottery, would I return or disappear or remain working securing the promotion.
I didn’t get it, the feeling of disappointment would be overkill. It’s everything that comes with it: questions, checking in, masking how I really feel.
I get it, happy days and I just will begin a journey of learning and mastery, maybe considering next steps.

I suppose I’m already basking in disappointment having not have been successful and knowing what’s required to advance my steps in the process I’m in.
I should prepare for an interview.
There’s no rebuttal regarding this. I’ve had so much time. There isn’t even an excuse worthy of why I haven’t. I already wrote I have no rebuttal so I shouldn’t even write anything past that point.

I just want to enjoy life and the rewards of hard work and potential. I’ve done the prerequisites, I’m trying to cash in and advance myself and prospects.

Buss me please

Wednesday 27th March 2024, 0100 GMT

In my working life I drill beyond the surface to connect with the ‘why’ because once I have the context I can embody the message and drive it.

I opt for the most abstract and challenging task because it gives me greater autonomy and space to explore. I gain just as much from the task as I pour in.

Once I set off on the campaign to drive what matters I employ others along the way by communicating the vision, purpose and benefits to align with them.

I’ve learned over the years to not apologise for being abstract or ambiguous but to stand on the plan of action and be assertive with task setting. Rather than frame suggestions through questions, I’m re-wording and being direct.

No longer holding back, I’m telling it how it is and being vocal. The bottom line is that I have no ego, I just want to win and it means getting to the root and driving what matters from there.

I find that what I am doing perpetual is placing the pieces in place well in advance and connecting dots of how to get there. When I speak and share things, to some it may seem far fetched as it’s so far removed from the present but if the message is consistent enough, it becomes the reality.

Titles mean nothing nor empty words but what speaks for you is action. On paper and in a spreadsheet things may look further but that doesn’t depict the whole picture.

I pitch the vision to potential talent and encourage them to get on board, putting the initiative into context. Inviting them to be apart of the culture shift by creating a sustainable system rooting in discipline -not authoritative but one of behaviour, habit and initiative.

The end goal is instil a sense of personal autonomy within the team where taking ownership and leading in the absence of leaders is the norm. There is no opt out, out in and engaging in team activity is the norm, anyone exhibiting signs of opting out are ostracised.

It’s a social experiment.

So granted it’s been a very long time since I last checked in to post an update and I’m neither ashamed at it nor filled with regret at not posting because I’ve been living it up. I’ve been doing video mainly, not so much podcasting nor even beat making but heavily creating video. I often forget to post it to the blog and I’m not even mad that I keep forgetting to do so. I don’t even forget, I just can’t be bothered a lot of the time. Not even neglectful in the slightest, I’ve just changed.

I find myself writing these updates again in solitude so you know that means that I’m on the cusp of change once again. A lot has changed and perhaps whilst I’m in that state between process, metamorphosis and destination, I’m ere trying to slow down to make sense of how I’m about to scale the obstacle of the process. Something that I did not respect nor pa much attention to but I realise that getting past a process is probably the most important fight.

Deep down we know we can do something but often the process barrier between you and the thing which you desire and are incredibly great at is the difference between doing and being a bystander. I agonised over getting something done whereby my life was on pause for weeks whilst I fought to be untouchable. The process showed me that when you ask for help people are always willing to lend their perspective, also when you take the time to understand and implement the changes to do things properly things change for the better and you become the benchmark of success.

Remember what I said earlier, I didn’t respect the process. I never placed much emphasis, energy nor importance on it. I became somewhat my own barrier to being successful by doing it all wrong. In his short space of time I’ve not only learnt a bunch about myself but developed the mindset that anything is possible when you push yourself harder that you ever have. I’ve actioned a process where I don’t rest on my skills but actively develop my talents by pushing myself further.

Who knew that an opportunity would force me into action the way it did but I did make a pact to myself at the start of 2023 that I would go harder than I ever have and take advantage of every opportunity I get. No more laid back, too cool for school but strive for the best and hold myself accountable by challenging myself to always do better and not get complement.

Right… Now the awkward address for my lack of activity is out the way I guess I can continue with creating some content or to be honest, just update regularly with a mixture of what I’m doing.

Peace.

29/09/2010

Failure is not something not to be feared nor considered, just go for whatever it is you want and achieve your goal, live your dream.

Failure is always a certainty because its the opposite of success, it’s a 50% certainty of the outcome with anything you do.

The more time, effort, energy and enthusiasm you put into something, the more chance you have of success because luck is not something that happens, you create it by doing.

In order for luck to come your way, you need to put the right energy into the universe so it can flow back to you.

Forget failure because it lies next to success in the future, put your trust into whatever it is you’re doing and consider what you do in the present as the most important.

The present is the only place you can see, touch, hear, smell and feel.

Work on a second to second basis, all else, past and future is void.

Seek your prize, put yourself into the moment and stay in your present continuously, to build.

Each second becomes a brick, lay one brick per second of your existence, each brick you lay represents a step of progression.

Build the highest, and most robust, from a very strong and stable foundation, which will evolve into a town, a city, a whole universe of endless possibility…

The present is where destiny lies so grab it, embrace it whilst u can.

It goes nowhere but it also requires you to stand up and say:

Forget failure, I’m going for mine. This moment is forever, there is neither past nor future, just right now.

Think about it this way; a creator transcends time, a creator lives in one moment because that one moment transcends all time frames because a creator is eternal, boundless.

It makes no sense to procrastinate so become boundless, infinite, and timeless as the creator, live in the moment.

A creator is successful because they live outside of the hourglass, and dictate life in the confines of the hourglass from the outside.

Live in your moment, that’s all that matters, forget failure just do, be present because it’s one of the only places you can trust yourself to make a difference.

Excerpt From: Khalid Omari. “Catharsis: Allegorically Speaking”.

Aloof to most trivial non-sense
I guess I blame wanting inner peace rather than be up a few cents.

A lot of the time I feel like I’m above all the non-sense
But find myself getting triggered for the sake of making sense.

I wish I could go in and not care about the non-sense
But they’ve brought my silence by offering a few more cents.

Why don’t you quit, won’t that make more sense?
I’ve got bills to pay so I shall continue to trade balance at my peace expense.

I can’t put a lid on feelings that I should know better
Than be silenced so I can keep my head above water in order to cash pay cheques.

Excerpt From: Khalid Omari. “Cogitation pt.2”.

I remember my dad asking me random questions like that and they would baffle the hell outta me. Funny how a question so simple turns into an elaborate answer of ifs, buts, and maybes. It doesn’t even require much thought or even an answer other than yes or no because it’s a close ended question.

Maybe I confuse myself by mistaking happiness for stagnation or living so far ahead in the future rather than the present. I find myself living for the end of things whether it be an appointment, the first half of a shift, the working day, the commute home, the cycle of promotion for an event, the event night itself, phone calls, conversations, awkward small talk… I look forward to the end of everything, in a majority of situations.

I’m at my happiest when I’m nestled away all alone in silence, laying down staring out of the window and breathing. Most of the things that get to us on a day to day or moment to moment are so insignificant it’s unreal. Think of the salary you get to go to work, is it ever or will it ever be enough when you think of all the things you could be doing with your time. The audacity that someone has decided how much an hour of your time is worth and offered you employment as if they’ve did you the favour is a mad ting.

If you didn’t have to work due to the financial commitments and spending habit you’ve developed over the corse of a few years what would you really be doing day to day?

I’d probably be laying on my bed staring up and out of the window in silence, listening to the sounds of outside.
I may even be under a tree, sitting in the shade, admiring the skyline and sights of the city.
I could be in another place with my girl exploring a foreign land and observing a different set of cultural customs.

Time is precious and with every moment you should be maximising your time by doing something you love rather than continue to torment yourself in a deep pool of pretence.

Don’t get it twisted, I love what I do for living and the brand I work for but I always wonder whether I’m living my life’s purpose. I always wonder if I’m really where I want to be, doing what I’m doing.

Does the work, energy and passion equate to the reward or am I continually selling myself short?

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Nothing in life is guaranteed nor given, what you want you work for and when the desired amount of time, energy, and dedication has been poured into a the well, your wishes are granted. It’s not simply throwing coins into an abyss of nothing, it’s more about putting that coin into the well and filling it up so your dream can flow on and manifest into what you had envisioned.

The whole point of a wish is to plan and work hard to make it happen rather than make a wish and forget about it. The more resources you pour into the well is the more you can dip a bucket into it to replenish yourself. You’re creating a source of energy, a source of refreshment, a source of renewal. Until you begin to see it that way you’ll be wishing away forever.

Think about where that well flows. Think about the source of that well; is it from a pure source, does it flow through contaminated lands that need to be cleansed, does the course of which your well follow from source to mouth need a new direction?

Are you fulfilling your duty of care to others on the same journey or are you simply dumping nothing but carcinogens into the energy supply?

Are you the blockage in the system, the cause of stagnant contaminated water, how often do you service the incoming and outgoing energy paths to avoid blockage?

Always ask yourself what contribution you make to collective existence, what type of energy are you putting out; are giving anything at all or is everything just take, take, take?

Once you lose all sense of entitlement you begin to work harder to make stuff happen. Once you put yourself out there and initiate actions you begin to see returns, you begin to align with all you had wished for.

What are you doing today, at this moment in time, that your future self will be thankful for?

Are you willing to make the necessary changes to make things happen at the source of the energy flow, or will you continue to drift along through life hoping that something manifests out of the many empty wishes on the back of copper coins thrown into a dry well?

The choice is yours, always be the change you wish to see, create your opportunities.

Do Something Your Future Self Will Be Thankful For is featured on Cogitation.

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If you’re on the road and understand the code, dynamics, hierarchy and structure of the system, you can understand business and politics.

It’s the same type of organisation, so use your instincts and apply it to all contexts in order to decipher how stuff works in terms you understand and you’ll win.

Don’t worry about the guy or girl who has a degree or a silver spoon. Just apply your type of survival tactics to your current situation, after translating the terminology into real world concepts you’re familiar with.

Use your instincts to your advantage. Apply the way you’re able to read the unspoken signs a person gives off to determine whether they’re trustworthy or not; facial expression, tone of voice, gesticulation, energies and choice of language.

The other candidates may have a degree but they haven’t spent the past 10 years navigating their way through traps in their path to the present day.

You’ve played the roads like the stock market and operated an independent business where you forcasted finances, managed profit and loss, knew how to build and uphold customer retention through USP (unique selling point).

You’re in that interview room at the moment with a bunch of graduates in the lobby who’s cvs read like a who’s who of red brick and Ivy League alumni.

What have you got?

Well you survived and weathered the storm through staying quiet, neutral and within your means. You pretty much operated at a niche level. Your clientele were 9-5ers, out of the area, you were never heard nor seen, your connect didn’t know who you were personally, you purchased stock through a proxy.

You’ve lived a life that they read books, study and simulate through practical assignments. Their books don’t teach them the importance of managing relationships, navigating your way through risks, hardships, law enforcement, suppliers, clientele, propaganda campaigns, spies, informants, and a sector that doesn’t stop.

There’s no Monday to Friday, there’s no 9-5, there are no days off. There’s no venture capitalist investors, no government grants, tax breaks and funding. You started off broke, signed on and invested your payment into some stock, forcasted how much units it would take to break even, reinvest and make a profit before spotting a gap in the market, a target audience in need of something at a mark down, and creating another line of products to cater to them.

Use your wits, act on your gut and trust your instincts because you knew when to transition. Yes you took a few risks which paid off on the back of successful PR campaigns but when the market got shaky and competition became fatal, you knew when to stop.

You can do anything you put your mind to, just translate your experiences into the context of the sector you’re applying for and use your instincts.

Best Wishes,

Khalid Omari

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30 seconds is all it takes to fall in love.

In fact it takes less than a second to detach yourself from your inhibitions and slip into a vacuum where space and time doesn’t exist.

It’s a parallel reality of possibility where you can live out your passing fantasies to escape from the mundane 37.5hr obligation, the daily commute, and the stage of existence between how you envision your life being, what you’re currently doing to get there and where you are right now.

It takes a split second to decide whether you’re going to do something radical to what you’d usually do on a day to day, less than that for your body to complete the command and a lifetime of success once a habits been formed.

Nothing is ever long, it’s people that make it longer, better yet it’s the perception of time which makes it so.

I look at things in terms of energy, how much are you willing to give for the reward, is the reward worth the task, does it reflect how you value yourself?

Is the reward on an upward trajectory of what you forecast for yourself?

25th September 2017